Though many people didn’t even know I had an anxiety/depression problem, the last 15 months have been the most horrible time of my life. God was moving & doing stuff in me, and I’m glad he has been faithful & taught me even in the midst of the storm, but I still would not want to repeat this last year. With that being said, I want everyone to know that God still heals & delivers today. I am proof of that. Here is my testimony, copied & pasted from my pastor’s blog:
I have been dealing with anxiety & depression for the last 15 months. It had gotten so bad that it was definitely interfering with my every day life. I couldn’t do the littlest task without being overwhelmed. Making decisions? Couldn’t handle it – big or small. My husband has been awesome & such a rock to lean on in this time. A wonderful spiritual leader for sure. Anyway, I had anxiety about little things & about big things, including my baby who is to be born soon. After losing a baby last year, I couldn’t think straight about this birth – I felt for sure he was going to die. Trust me, I didn’t want to feel this way. Well this week I was beginning to consider being put on anxiety medication (a huge deal to me, as I rarely take even a small drug like tylenol), and the thought of that even made me anxious. I went to church yesterday morning, forgetting that they would be praying for healing. As soon as Pastor Chilly started talking about it, I couldn’t control the tears. I knew God was saying to go up & get prayed for. As soon as I went up, even before being anointed with oil, I felt the Holy Spirit working in me. I got prayed for and all day yesterday & today I have been “testing” my healing (lol). For the first time this whole pregnancy, I am looking forward to & have peace about the birth. Little things don’t send me into a panic like they did just 2 days ago. I am now almost in tears because of JOY and amazement of what God has done. After 15 months of walking around in a cloud, I now have clarity, peace, hope, & JOY!!!! Praise God!!!!